well, ok maybe not sad...but definately introspective. Less than a year ago I was (as far as I knew) happily married to the woman of my dreams and my best friend. I was living in Albuquerque NM in a nice condo....but...life seemed empty and unfulfilling. I was in a rut and going nowhere.
Then one day, right before last Thanksgiving, my wife said we needed to talk...and my life crashed down around me even more than it had been. I left NM and came back to Oregon. Today, I dont have my own place (I am staying with my sister for now), and I've been through some changes. A month after she asked me to move out I quit drinking. Ive been sober since. I lost about 20lbs, cut my long hair off and started making plans for my future. I realized I was entirely at fault for not making my wife happy and taking better care of her needs. I miss my wife...I miss her company...I miss her laugh...I miss her smell. I traded that for sobriety, growth and independence. sometimes I think I made a good trade, but its hard nevertheless.
The part I still have a hard time understanding (and always have had a hard time with) is how women can just "flip the switch" and no longer love someone. But I'm trying not to dwell on that too much. I find that since I dont drink anymore, gave up all online games, and really dont know anyone around here anymore, I needed a new hobby. So, I bought a Supra...then another, then another....lol. Its therapy for me. My sister likes to work in the yard, thats her therapy. I need grease under my nails at least 3 days a week to feel productive.
I am not looking for any sympathy so please dont post any. Im really just wondering is anyone else has been through some rough times this year, and is your Supra therapy for you as well?
Then one day, right before last Thanksgiving, my wife said we needed to talk...and my life crashed down around me even more than it had been. I left NM and came back to Oregon. Today, I dont have my own place (I am staying with my sister for now), and I've been through some changes. A month after she asked me to move out I quit drinking. Ive been sober since. I lost about 20lbs, cut my long hair off and started making plans for my future. I realized I was entirely at fault for not making my wife happy and taking better care of her needs. I miss my wife...I miss her company...I miss her laugh...I miss her smell. I traded that for sobriety, growth and independence. sometimes I think I made a good trade, but its hard nevertheless.
The part I still have a hard time understanding (and always have had a hard time with) is how women can just "flip the switch" and no longer love someone. But I'm trying not to dwell on that too much. I find that since I dont drink anymore, gave up all online games, and really dont know anyone around here anymore, I needed a new hobby. So, I bought a Supra...then another, then another....lol. Its therapy for me. My sister likes to work in the yard, thats her therapy. I need grease under my nails at least 3 days a week to feel productive.
I am not looking for any sympathy so please dont post any. Im really just wondering is anyone else has been through some rough times this year, and is your Supra therapy for you as well?
